I Almost Died...

I Almost Died...

Early this morning was a realization for me. I almost died. My heart was crushed into pieces and my whole body was trembling as if it was my final day.

Flashbacks and all kept flashing before my eyes.

Then I remember my winning short story piece way back in college entitled "" Sa Kanto Ng Langit At Dilim"" about a young lad trying to know the real him. How many times will he walk to find his soul?

That was 13 years ago and for the past few days, I embarked on the same journey but this time it was the worst. I almost died.

I always asked myself when will the emptiness ends, I am really tired. And then again my feet keeps me running or walking to this very dark pavement that I hate. I still have the tenacity to look for something that I don''t know or sure of.

I am the one to be blamed for what I''ve experienced. I let it happen. I saw the signs and still I continue to accept the evil-sweet thoughts that I thought will change. But it didn''t.

Instead I dug my own grave.

The experience was tantamount to a real horrifying movie like scream or any rape scene. This time I managed to cheat death or a severe injury, for now. I was not able to apply my karate or boxing skills but my high-pitch voice saved me. I screamed the loudest HELP in my entire life. And god saved me. The scratches, punches and the blood that dripped into my skin were not enough compared to the emotional damage that this experience has taught me. I was scared really! I almost died. I''m traumatized!

I kept my silence even to my closest friends! And I am still bleeding inside. I am scared.

I almost died.

They say that we always have two faces and for sure I have it too! Behind my smiling face, I am trying to conceal my own loneliness.

Chuvaness & Me

Chuvaness & Me

I read the looklet competition by Chuvaness a few weeks back and I was thinking that time whether I will join our not.

Seeing the sign this evening after browsing my friends FACEBOOK''s (Dennis Trillo''s sister) looklet page, I signed up and dress three models to my desire and like.

I designed three looks, Going out, Purple Invasion and High Street Fashion.

I sent Chuvaness my piece for her to see...

I had a great time doing it, the pleasure of dressing, shopping and it''s free!

What more can you ask for?

I Will Wait For You...

I will wait for you... (Sigh!)

NIKON D40 (Pre-Loved) For Sale

Nikon D40 (Pre-Loved)

Includes:

18-55mm ED II AF-S Zoom Lens
2GB SD Memory Slot
2.5" LCD
Internal Electronic Flash
Selectable Scene Modes
Focus & Exposure Modes
Pictbridge
USB Cable
1 Batt pack
1 Shoulder bag (FREE)

Age: Since March 2009 Few times used only
Actuation: 25K Php/ 1,800AED
Condition: No scratches / in very prestine condition

The lightest, most compact Nikon Digital SLR ever, featuring intuitive controls and an Ergonomically designed operation that even first-time SLR users can enjoy.

Supplied Accessories:
EN-EL9 Rechargeable Li-ion Battery
MH-23 Quick Charger
UC-E4 USB Cable
DK-16 Rubber Eyecup
Camera Strap BF-1A Body Cap
DK-5 Eyepiece Cap
BS-1 Accessory Shoe Cap 6.1 effective megapixels / Image Size (pixels):

up to 3,008 x 2,000 Fast 2.5 frames per second in bursts of up to 100 JPEG frames High-precision digital image Processing algorithms produce natural-looking images 3D Color Matrix Metering II with 420-pixel RGB sensor delivers consistent and dependable automatic Exposure for ideal results in most lighting conditions Advanced 3-area AF system Automatic control over ISO-equivalent sensitivity from ISO 200 to 1600 with manual override Eight automated Digital Vari-Programs [Auto, Auto (Flash Off), Portrait, Landscape, Child, Sports, Close Up, and Night Portrait] optimize White balance, sharpening, tone, color, saturation and hue to match the scene Near-instant 0.18-second power-up Versatile shutter speed control with a range from 30 to 1/4000 s, plus bulb Creative in-camera effects and Editing functions consolidated under the new Retouch menu, including D-Lighting, Red-eye correction, Trim, Monochrome settings (Black-and-white, Sepia, Cyanotype), Filter Effects (Skylight, Warm filter, Color balance), Small Picture and Image Overlay Large 2.5-inch LCD Monitor Information displays can be shown in Classic, Graphic or Wallpaper format Assist Images help select the appropriate settings for many camera features by showing an example image typical of that setting Large, bright viewfinder with 0.8x magnification Fast image Data transfer and Recording to SD Memory cards of up to 4GB capacity Exposure Metering System: TTL full-aperture exposure metering system Electronic-Flash - Auto, Portrait, Child, Close Up, Night Portrait modes Uses Nikon AF-S Lenses Unit Dimensions (W x D x H): Approximately 5.0 x 2.5 x 3.7 inches; Weight: Approximately 1lb. 1oz. without battery, memory card or body cap.


My mobile: +97150 1090924 / +63917 9760959 or PM me for the price

Courtesy of Ayandeato

The Narcissist In Me

Actually!

Well its been a lonely Thursday night, all my friends were out, partying, except me! I would have wanted to go but my butt says no.

So while counting the sheeps for me to sleep, I decided to get my brothers dslr and took some shots, of me!

I had fun really, all bad shots and I've chosen some photos that are a little less crap from the rest. LOL

Ciao Ciao De Carabao

Thoughts About Love

" There just comes a time when it's so clear that
moving on is the best decision. "

Love is a powerful emotion. It brings two different people together and brings hatred and grudge for some when a good relationship turns sour.

Love is Life.

Love is Happiness.

Love is Blind.

Love is Eternal.

Love is Forgiving.

Love is the End.

Love is the Beginning.

Love is Moving On.

Love is Freedom.

We all experience love in various intensity. Most of us gave everything, that when this love meet its end, our heart and mind can't process it quickly, we can't accept it, we are in denial. Because we emptied our hearts already, nothing left for us and gave all to the one we thought will do the same. We felt that we're useless without the other person. But we are not! We maybe incapacitated for a while, but thru hope and diversion, we can manage to survive.

It will take time to heal. The process may be antagonizing but time will heal everything.

I am telling my good and dear friend about this, I can't feel the hurt, but I understand her pain. Love is a never ending search for the right person that will love us back, respect us, protect us, give us strength. The right person will come, it may not be the guy or girl were expecting, but he or she will come, to bring back the colour in our lives, to give us back the smile and the kick...

Sooner or Later. We'll see.