Stressed Out

Admittedly, I was clinging on a rope that's about to fall out. My hopes are really high, thinking that everything will be alright. I'm lost!

Before my birthday, I was in a lot of stress, It's been a long time since I felt this feeling and it killed me. It reflected on my face really! ... I was really haggard! I can't sleep, I can't concentrate on things I plan to do and so forth.

My flight to Manila was great, I met 2 of my best friends for life. Ash and Sonya who is celebrating her birthday also. I made a white lie about this flight and I suffered tremendously. Instead of celebrating it with a peace of mind. I was nauseous and in too much pain.

How can you be so insensitive? It's my birthday. It's my dear friend's birthday. Leave me in peace. Ha Ha Ha... That's my feeling the whole time I was in Manila. I arrived 1030 PM, the 23rd of March and I slept 0400AM because of this mess. My credit of 160 Dhs was consumed in a flash. Explaining and swearing I didn't mean anything bad. You really can't win if you are arguing with a closed minded person. I didn't!

I'm glad Sonya and Ash were there. Instead of having a decent dinner outside, Eastwood in particular, I was forced back in to my hotel room. And ordered Jollibee instead. Wow! What a treat! And like I do best, I indulged myself eating Chicken Joy (3 pcs.), Spaghetti, Peach-Mango Pie, Jolly Hotdog and a soda, how's that for a dinner 0330H in the morning like there's no tomorrow.

I tend to hide my feelings...my loneliness...my anger especially to my friends. But this time I can't!

How can you compare my love to my friends and to you?

I am tired.

I was snoring to the highest level, I swear! due to stress.

Is it worth it? Is it worth hanging to the rope I tried to tie strongly? Too much of something is bad I guess...

(Sigh)... (A deep Sigh)