Facing Your Fear!

Almost 3 decades will past now and I am still the same old, carefree boy you've known, Honestly, I felt that I haven't change a thing. Why? Because maybe I am afraid of losing the innocence I had... I am afraid that I might turn into a different Me...

But I really did great yesterday, I faced my Fear...

Facing a current problem was a brave move for me... I thought before that being carefree will fix everything, that things will fix by itself... I was wrong! The more I ignore it, the bigger the problem will be... And yes, just yesterday, I faced my fear with humbleness and acceptance!

That for the past 6 months, I have been inconsiderate, insensitive and not-so-me!

I accepted the anger, the blame, the sorrow!

I presented myself, the real me... and I was free!

One Good thing to do is to accept the fact that we need to face our problems, if not by ourselves, through the help of others, Never underestimate the power of prayers, the power of being humble....

For me, Acceptance played a big role in releasing the fear that I have... That I am not perfect, that I will make mistakes and should learn from it...

After that, I felt that the big burden on my back was freed...

And it felt good...

March...This should be my month...

Ilang tulog na lang at muling madadagdagan ng taon ang aking edad...

Minsan ay naiiisip ko na dapat ba akong matakot o dapat akong magdiwang...

Pareho ang aking nararamdaman... Takot at Saya... Takot dahil parang kailan lang ay nakabukas ang mga palad ko para humingi ng baon sa skwela, at ang Mama ko naman ay daghang ngumiti at tumawad na "pwede bang biente na lang muna" ang ibigay niya sa akin... "Opo!" ang sagot ko... Ngunit ngayon, Isa na akong ma-ma...hindi na totoy....

Saya dahil binigyan ako ng pagkakataon na makita ang mundo, maramdamang magmahal, masaktan, magkasakit, magtagumpay at mabigo...

Anuman ang mangyari... masaya ang mabuhay... masayang maramdamang umiikot ang mundo... Dahil dito masusukat ang ating pagkatao... Kung pano natin haharapin ang buhay... Ang bukas...

Living and Hoping...

It's been 8 days and counting and I felt that this will go on forever! The loneliness and sadness... I hate these feelings!

But I will live and survive... I will hope and have faith! I will be strong...

Until the day that my hope and faith will turn into a reality...

Until then...

I Bid Goodbye and Say Hello!

Two days ago, I bid goodbye to the place I was born and raised...I bid goodbye to the good and bad memories, I left my dearest family, friends and my soul and my heart... I thought it will be easy, I am a carefree and risktaker person, and I can take challenges in a heartbeat! I was wrong, the moment I uttered the words Goodbye and see you soon! Tears kept falling! I was really crying... For what? for the memories? for a new place? No! I was in tears because I will be leaving the very place I love... the Philippines and all the good people and memories that honed me to be the person I am today!

12 hours of flying was really a heartache! Being alone was an added burden... But I said to myself this is for our Future... Am I blinded by the opportunites or just a victim of circumstances! I say both!

As I arrived and smell the new breeze, I knew I was far away from home... I felt all emotions... Fear...Excitement... And I still walked with hope and confidence... Not knowing what's in store for me!

But I know God will give me the best!

For now, I will work hard... play hard... pray hard and until the day we see our familly and friends again!

I bid goodbye and say hello to the bright future!

Keepin' It!

Is it really hard to find someone you can depend on... someone you can tell all your fears, your secrets, your dreams and goals, your frustrations and failures?

Me...I am lucky! Very lucky to find someone whome i can call mine! Someone I can build my dreams... Someone I can share my achievements and someone who can comfort me on my falls!

Thank you for the day you came into my life....

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I always see myself as someone who strives to be a better
person, a great person. I always have a vivid view and
direction of what’s for me. A simple guy waiting to
be reborn as a new individual, a person who will be matured
enough to face the reality, the pain and happiness of life.
I am ready to have a fight against the insecurities that
this world bestowed upon every human being. I know i am not
perfect and maybe never will be but i take hold of the
pride I have within me that I will always do well in
everything that I want to achieve in life. I try to live my
life as meaningful as possible beacuse I know that I may
die anytime and not experience the bliss of our so-called
life! I have gone to optimum heights when it comes to
lessons learned from my mistakes... I always wanted to be
someone who will be remembered...I wasn’t born to please
anyone. We were all born to live our lives to the fullest.
We should learn to choose friends wisely, before investing
into them. Love your friend, as you wanted them to love you
back, never ignore their feelings. Thus, never to supress
what you feel inside and express it fully as if it’s your
last day with them. I dont make life complicated cuz life
is complicated enough, I see myself as a very passionate,
optomistic and sometimes insensitive person. I dislike
persons who are egomaniacs and have flashy pretentions. I
enjoy the simple things in life that we tend to ignore. Im
very much aware of the harsh realities of life, but that's
pretty much it, im just aware, Idealistic maybe, but I hope
I have the resources and the stamina to change the world!
I
live by the day, but plans ahead for the future. I know
that I will never stop hoping… that my life and my dreams,
plans and goals will be achieved soon!