Waiting In Vain

It is really antagonizing not to do anything for 24 hours...for 21 days of no flights...

I am patiently waiting though and blindly watched my mobile for any calls or messages regarding my flight...Unfortunately, minutes passed, hours slept and days gone by...I am still waiting...

Being paid without doing anything is B!#$!#! right? I mean, it's nice to just lay down the couch, watch television, take a bath, sing, eat, eat and kill time but at the same time get paid... But for 21 days and counting and no flights? Come on! I am dead bored... My birthday is coming in 3 days and I need something for myself...But since no flights, no hazard pay... no dollars for dirhams... Sigh!

But counting the blessings that I had for the past years, I would say that I am truly lucky!

For having my Honey, my Family & my Friends, and my Work!

There is nothing like flying! Though honestly, you really need to read books and practice your speech, because it will really make you slow... But If you are witty by birth... No problem Laughs!

Well, like days and weeks... I am still waiting in vain... But Thankful with the blessings....

Bye for now...

Make Me Whole

Darlin' I want you to listen I stayed up all night so I can get this thing right And I don't think there's anything missin' coz a person like you made it easy to do, I've waited for so long To sing to you this song

Coz your eyes are the windows to heaven , Your smile could heal a million souls , Your love completes my existence , You're the other half that makes me whole , You're the only other half that makes me whole , I think the angels are your brothers, They told about me, said "you're just what he needs" And I find myself thanking your mother For giving birth to a saint My spirit flies when I say your name If there's one thing that's true It's that I was born to love you

You make my dreams come true over and over again And I honestly truly believe That you and me are written in the stars I'd live my whole life through Just giving thanks to you

I may be Lost In Translation... But I have you by my side...

Facing Your Fear!

Almost 3 decades will past now and I am still the same old, carefree boy you've known, Honestly, I felt that I haven't change a thing. Why? Because maybe I am afraid of losing the innocence I had... I am afraid that I might turn into a different Me...

But I really did great yesterday, I faced my Fear...

Facing a current problem was a brave move for me... I thought before that being carefree will fix everything, that things will fix by itself... I was wrong! The more I ignore it, the bigger the problem will be... And yes, just yesterday, I faced my fear with humbleness and acceptance!

That for the past 6 months, I have been inconsiderate, insensitive and not-so-me!

I accepted the anger, the blame, the sorrow!

I presented myself, the real me... and I was free!

One Good thing to do is to accept the fact that we need to face our problems, if not by ourselves, through the help of others, Never underestimate the power of prayers, the power of being humble....

For me, Acceptance played a big role in releasing the fear that I have... That I am not perfect, that I will make mistakes and should learn from it...

After that, I felt that the big burden on my back was freed...

And it felt good...

March...This should be my month...

Ilang tulog na lang at muling madadagdagan ng taon ang aking edad...

Minsan ay naiiisip ko na dapat ba akong matakot o dapat akong magdiwang...

Pareho ang aking nararamdaman... Takot at Saya... Takot dahil parang kailan lang ay nakabukas ang mga palad ko para humingi ng baon sa skwela, at ang Mama ko naman ay daghang ngumiti at tumawad na "pwede bang biente na lang muna" ang ibigay niya sa akin... "Opo!" ang sagot ko... Ngunit ngayon, Isa na akong ma-ma...hindi na totoy....

Saya dahil binigyan ako ng pagkakataon na makita ang mundo, maramdamang magmahal, masaktan, magkasakit, magtagumpay at mabigo...

Anuman ang mangyari... masaya ang mabuhay... masayang maramdamang umiikot ang mundo... Dahil dito masusukat ang ating pagkatao... Kung pano natin haharapin ang buhay... Ang bukas...

Living and Hoping...

It's been 8 days and counting and I felt that this will go on forever! The loneliness and sadness... I hate these feelings!

But I will live and survive... I will hope and have faith! I will be strong...

Until the day that my hope and faith will turn into a reality...

Until then...

I Bid Goodbye and Say Hello!

Two days ago, I bid goodbye to the place I was born and raised...I bid goodbye to the good and bad memories, I left my dearest family, friends and my soul and my heart... I thought it will be easy, I am a carefree and risktaker person, and I can take challenges in a heartbeat! I was wrong, the moment I uttered the words Goodbye and see you soon! Tears kept falling! I was really crying... For what? for the memories? for a new place? No! I was in tears because I will be leaving the very place I love... the Philippines and all the good people and memories that honed me to be the person I am today!

12 hours of flying was really a heartache! Being alone was an added burden... But I said to myself this is for our Future... Am I blinded by the opportunites or just a victim of circumstances! I say both!

As I arrived and smell the new breeze, I knew I was far away from home... I felt all emotions... Fear...Excitement... And I still walked with hope and confidence... Not knowing what's in store for me!

But I know God will give me the best!

For now, I will work hard... play hard... pray hard and until the day we see our familly and friends again!

I bid goodbye and say hello to the bright future!